My favourite moment

After stressing all morning with anxiety attacks and my body rejecting the negative energy. My favourite moment is when my baby wakes up and comes running in and gives me my morning  cuddles. He always makes me feel a bit better sometimes i just worry i might let him down.

Dear son,

May you remember me in the eyes of a babe,

And not see all the times I needed aid.

May you think back on my days in sweats and we mights, 

As pajamas parties and movie nights

Please see mommy's naps as cuddle time, 

And  forget the dirty dishes and breakfast at lunchtime. 

Know that you were the only reason I got out of bed, 

Even if I just moved to the couch instead.

Forget my tears and fears, 

Hold on to the moments we shifted gears. 

forever remember I love you 
even tho at times this mama was blue.
In fact all loving you 
was the only thing I was sure I knew how to do. 
So when you are older and look on back 
I pray your good memories do not lack.  

-Bellah